I have been missing you.
It is so ironic that now that we officially homeschool I feel like I have lost my connections with many of the inspirations that led me to this path.
I guess I've been busy!
I didn't expect to actually have both boys home this year. H joining us was a surprise blessing, but one that left me scrambling for quite a while. Lol.
So I took my eyes off the world of blogs and shiny homeschooling fascinations. I focused in on school, our family, our friends. It was nice and it felt necessary.
But then...
I started to feel alone.
I started to feel isolated.
I started to wonder WHY on earth I was doing this crazy thing called Homeschool. WHY was I making my life a million times more complicated than it needed to be?? WHY had I chosen something that needs to be explained to every person I meet? ... and what if... I feel like I don't have the answers, if I feel like I can't actually justify this choice anymore. Oh No!
I had lost my direction. My focus.
I had isolated myself from the very community that had been my muse.
I felt lost.
Now, I didn't actually recognise these things for myself. It was my husband who could see what was missing. And he was right.
There are a million ways to live. A squillion ways to educate your children. It's a smorgasbord and I am definitely eclectic in my choices. But now I can see that even though I get to make all of these particular choices for my family I can't do it all alone. I need to talk, to read, to laugh & to share. I need connection to people. People who are passionate about education & life; teachers, inventors, makers, doers. Mothers, fathers and kids. It's not just about homeschoolers, it's about people who share the juice of inspiration.
So, here I am! Back in the World Of Blog!
I need to be here. I need to connect. I need you :)
I hope you are happy to have me back. Please say hello and send me to your blogs. I want to get to know you all over again!
Amber. x
* I need to add a small postscript, because I haven't mentioned my fab IRL homeschool family friends over at Mansted Family Project who are my constant support and inspiration and fun-sharers. I wouldn't be able do this crazy without them :)
