I have been missing you.
It is so ironic that now that we officially homeschool I feel like I have lost my connections with many of the inspirations that led me to this path.
I guess I've been busy!
I didn't expect to actually have both boys home this year. H joining us was a surprise blessing, but one that left me scrambling for quite a while. Lol.
So I took my eyes off the world of blogs and shiny homeschooling fascinations. I focused in on school, our family, our friends. It was nice and it felt necessary.
But then...
I started to feel alone.
I started to feel isolated.
I started to wonder WHY on earth I was doing this crazy thing called Homeschool. WHY was I making my life a million times more complicated than it needed to be?? WHY had I chosen something that needs to be explained to every person I meet? ... and what if... I feel like I don't have the answers, if I feel like I can't actually justify this choice anymore. Oh No!
I had lost my direction. My focus.
I had isolated myself from the very community that had been my muse.
I felt lost.
Now, I didn't actually recognise these things for myself. It was my husband who could see what was missing. And he was right.
There are a million ways to live. A squillion ways to educate your children. It's a smorgasbord and I am definitely eclectic in my choices. But now I can see that even though I get to make all of these particular choices for my family I can't do it all alone. I need to talk, to read, to laugh & to share. I need connection to people. People who are passionate about education & life; teachers, inventors, makers, doers. Mothers, fathers and kids. It's not just about homeschoolers, it's about people who share the juice of inspiration.
So, here I am! Back in the World Of Blog!
I need to be here. I need to connect. I need you :)
I hope you are happy to have me back. Please say hello and send me to your blogs. I want to get to know you all over again!
Amber. x
* I need to add a small postscript, because I haven't mentioned my fab IRL homeschool family friends over at Mansted Family Project who are my constant support and inspiration and fun-sharers. I wouldn't be able do this crazy without them :)
This year, I had a huge change in my homeschooling community. I kept clinging to my belief that, with a little faith, all of life's upsets lead to better things. But it was lonely for a time! I'm coming out on the other side stronger now. Thank you for stopping by my blog. I am thrilled to find yours. I enjoy your writing very much.
ReplyDeleteWelcome back, Amber! What a lovely post with such important points. I ebb and flow between isolation and healthy interaction. (I've yet to overdue community since having children.)
ReplyDeleteI haven't been blogging much lately, but you can visit our little homeschool at learningjourneyjournal.blogspot.com
I look forward to reading your posts again.
Best,
Glory
Welcome back to blogland. I don't homeschool but I do blog and enjoy reading your one :o)
ReplyDeleteThank you ladies!! <3
ReplyDeleteHello Amber! So nice to "meet" you! I relate so very much to what you are writing here as I also homeschool in isolation. the land of "blogs" is so important to me, too. I find inspiration, connection, and just what I need to keep doing what I'm doing. Because I don't have it around me and that's hard. I long for those connections and surprisingly, (amazingly!) I've found it online (?) Never thought that would happen, but I guess it turns out online relationships can be "real." So I"m glad to meet you today, already I can see that your blog is a true inspirtation. Much love from Costa Rica,
ReplyDeleteLeslie
Yay! She's b-a-c-k!
ReplyDeleteGood to see you blogging again - I've missed you virtually and in blogworld : )
And thanks for the postscript link!
All of us at Mansted Family Project love sharing the crazy with you too : )
Darn! I meant to say I missed you IRL and virtually in blogworld.
ReplyDeleteCan't sort my virtual from my real...
Lol Tracey :)
ReplyDelete& waving hello Leslie! Nice to "meet you" too. I'm going to head over to your blog & read all about writing in chocolate syrup (!) right now! xx
Well hello!! What a surprise!
ReplyDeleteSO happy for your decision to return to this space. It wasn't the same without you. Hope for my sake that this time you decide to stay here too...:)
Miri
Amber, I thought you just moved to Facebook or did I misunderstand that lol? I'm not a FB person at all, I prefer blogs any day. Good to see you blogging again. And yes, what we do as homeschoolers is so against the norm that we need each other which is why I love blogland more:)
ReplyDeleteAwww, thank you for the enthusiastic hello's!!
ReplyDeletep.s. My facebook page is just an added-extra. Not a replacement for this blog :)